I am still waiting for my grades. The grades that will determine whether I'll finally graduate from my undergraduate course or not. This is the kind of waiting that makes me weak at my knees. The kind of waiting that gives me a sudden heart attack if I'd be thinking of the worst outcome. Even in my dreams, grades and graduation are the theme. I wanted to graduate already. God knows how much I yearn for it.
These days, all I wanted to do is just sit here and wait for my grades, or sleep and just wake up when they are already available. It just seems like I can't function and think well knowing that I'm restless inside, waiting for the new chapter of my life.
The deadline of the submission of grades is on April 16. Yes, I am counting the number of days as that date arrives. And today, I am like, "5 days to go!!!!". You know what, that seems like five decades to me now. Ah, the pain and the horror of waiting.
By the way, a cousin asked me if I'd be graduating with honors. I suppressed my laughter. If she only knew how much I crawled most of my subjects just to get a three (passing grade), she wouldn't dare to ask that. I just told her that I'm just an average student here. Wait, I think, I should have said below average. Na, that's a little degrading, I'll settle for average.hehehe.